Room going...

It's difficult for me. Difficult in many ways, but mostly for me to make room in my life for people, never mind those who don't make room for me.

I'm tired of keeping this room open for you, just in case you decide to come and visit. You never visit these days.

I've kept this room open for others before too, you'd think I'd learn. Apparently not. I never will.

The only time I see you lately is when I push and gnaw and tap on your door obnoxiously.
Even then, you don't always answer.

I'm tired of knocking and waiting for you to answer.

Its about time I opened up this room to someone who might actually use it... someone who might actually consider me and my feelings and my friendship, someone who will see me and like me and appreciate me and encourage me.

The real me that is.

I just want someone who acts like a real friend. Who treasures my time and love and care.

This room should have no space for you anymore. I'm not going to hold it for you forever, its time to let someone else make use of it.

You know what, even if someone does, I'll always make room for you if you ever decide to visit...